Well. Finally getting this site off the ground. Funny, when I was looking to create a website promoting myself, I found this difficult. But when I turned to thinking about the teachings and insights I have gained from the various spiritual practices I have engaged in since finding recovery, the ideas for the that website was expansive. So here I go.
It will still be challenging. I get frustrated with myself because I have many defects to overcome, some are discouraging. Writing is not my strong suit. I think that this is easy to overcome though with practice and application of effort.. My mental clarity comes and goes. This is effected by many factors that I will share at some point My ability to be patient could also use some work. In many ways I have been able to see that all of these are connected. But my love and fasination with the insites that my spiritual practice provides is very fulfilling.That is what I hope to share here.
In many ways, I love Facebook – especially how is allows me to be send and receive news, opinions and ideas from my friends, family and acquaintances. But in many ways it is too much. Keeping up with social media can be exhausting. It can be obsessing too to constantly be putting my take on the world, and what I see as important out for others to see. I find I just can’t keep up. Does anyone really care about what I think and feel? My is important thatcI express it.
After the endless demands of work, I find it hard balancing all of my other needs and interests – my various musical hobbies, keeping up the news, favorites sports interests, feeding myself, vain attempts to get exercise and get outdoors, reading (almost always spiritual), visiting family and friends, spiritual gatherings, etc. What I really feel is most of the time I am not doing what matters most.
This site, although primarily focusing on my understanding of Buddhist teachings, will be a channel for me to do just that. This practice is what I most feel comfortable about when connecting to others. Sharing and receiving joy is what I love most.This practice is both fulfilling and joyful.
Initially my experience with meditation came thru the therapeutic process. It was suggested that I simply close my eyes and look within. At the time I did not know that this was meditating. At first, all I felt were these strange movements of energy in my body that felt like banana slugs crawling inside my intestines. Later, as I continued this inner looking, I found that all of a sudden I felt everything going on inside me. I have not been able to turn this off. Another time had a White Light experience – being enveloped in a blinding warm white light for a few seconds.
Meditation retreat after retreat and over the years and frequent practice at home this has continually evolved. Calm has become more of a state of being for me. As I have become more peaceful I have also become more sensative. Most of the time there is this struggle and it feels easier to distract myself. I am more able to listen to others. I am less judgemental. My understanding about being human has grown. My interest in how the mind works has blossomed. It with this understanding that I looked to formally share this knowledge by created a group. We meditate and discuus these topics and more almost always connected to buddhist teachings.
We are both blessed and cursed in this age of instant and open communication. Whether we agree or not, everyone who wishes to share their views and opinions about the world in general is able to do so. Everyone wants their opinion to matter most, to be more correct, to be the right view and the right way. One of the basic understandings in buddhist practice is that what we find important is not important, and we do not finf what is important is important. How we relate to the outter world is how we relate to the inner world. So what are the subjects that we should explore. This site is going to explore that. Because recovery is about getting understanding ourselves, about acceptance of the way things really are, and learning to traverse in this human existence in ways that do no harm.