Ran into this thought provoking article today on how we think. Apparently some people think in words and others to not. I do not find this too suprising. There are times, when I am peaceful, where there are no thoughts. This was most recently clear to me when attending this year’s new year spirit walk in the Redwood forest.
Most of the time though, I think without thoughts but have a running dialog of thoughts that are judging my thoughts (if that makes sense). I have gotten somewhat adept at recognizing this and using my thinking to evaluate my thought dialog. This comes in very handy when the frequent random thought occurs (where apparently anything goes).
I also try to notice the times when I do not check these thoughts and run with them. To me this is a dangerous proposition because this is where unskillful behavior can creep in. I find myself getting wrapped up with my thoughts (identifying with them) and then engaging in some gossip or complaining. This is the main source of my gratitude for my meditation practice and the Buddhas teachings.
This I believe this is where an grace enters once on the path to recovery and thru the application of spiritual principals. Otherwise feeding these unskillful behaviors unchecked can not be overcome. In my case I have other defects of behavior where I am not as skillful.
I can honestly say that I am 99% better at self talk. I can get frustrated but I do not usually beat myself up anymore or get to down for any period of time. It is not like I am try to cut that off. I want to be open to my feelings but not be ruled by them. Now only if …..
There is no guarantee though as I frequently see many authors, teachers and other dedicated meditation practitioners who have the credentials and talk the talk but do not always walk the walk, myself included. So my practice and training continues…
